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Hello, I do not like summer and I really want to move to a place where it's permanent winter all year round (Do not say Antarctica I am not a penguin). I'm studying the tedious year of secondary four where all joy eludes us till november, oh the joyous month of november. I also play the guitar and the drums&very minimal piano. I'm also a percussionist! This is a profile so that some people will be happy that I'm not just a heart in the sand, which I think is really pretty by the way. Thus, it is weird and disjointed and not very profilish but still! It serves the purpose. Haha happy now? :D

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

10:52 AM

Yesterday Eugene+JK+HG+Jane came over :)

Rockband + that annoying Rabbit game hahaha we played till we were all so tired!

Going t school t meet dear Shaz in abit :)

And finally watching This Is It, I really hope it won't disappoint! Michael Jackson is epic.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

12:03 AM

I've had a little time t think t myself lately.

And I found myself thinking about how the decisions I've made have resulted in how things are like now

And if I had decided otherwise, how would things be like?

I guess I will never know but I do wonder.

I need closure, I need t see you without it triggering a whole chain of events, without me turning into a half zombie. I need closure. I really do. I hope I get it soon!

This is dragging on far too long for my liking. Two plus years is too long. Way too long.

Anyhow. The past few days have been awesome :)

Friday OP was the best so far for our group I feel yay I'm just so happy that we got NO MORE PW EVER EVER FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES WOOHOO goodbye PW forever!

After school accompanied Marcus t cut his hair and he's got bangs now omg I laughed until I lost my voice + lunch at MadJack's w Marcus/Jane/Saeful!

Then Jane/Clara came over and stayed over! :)

Walking on the streets at 1am esp after it just rained is simply lovely.

Saturday was Fundraising at SA! Thank God for sunny weather and dirty cars (:

It was really fun, + dinner at town afters!

Sunday was Fundraising yet again, this time I did publicity, sprinting after all the cars is helluva tiring! But all in all yeah it was really fun, and $1, 072 in two days yeah oh yeah!!

Lunch afters + We all climbed the Spiderweb hahaha I felt like I was reliving my childhood days + Basketball and dinner at Redhill!

Didn't play basketball due t my cough so just sat around making new friends and playing cards

Haha damn I really suck at Speed but hey at least I can play cheat :D

Oh yeah, and I've got bronchitis again wth?

But nvm it sounds like its going away soon so that's a relief!

Monday Ctas+Jocelyn came over for movie marathon :D

I love the way I can feel so comfortable w them, just like the old times,

I love the way how nothing has changed though we've all gone t separate schools!

Happy Birthday Pearlyn! :)

Haven't seen you in ages shall we meet up soon, happy happy seventeenth dear Apple ♥

And Happy Birthday Saeful! :)

Too lazy t find a picture heh.

Oh yes. And I've found out that I will be spending most of my birthday at my school's open house. At the mercy of my schoolmates and ccamates.

And fancy I was rejoicing having a birthday before school starts so that I'll be safe.

Good luck t me! :/

GOOD LUCK T EVERYONE FOR OP :D

Remember, confidence is key (:

Thursday, November 05, 2009

8:41 PM

Today and yesterday, we had PW for eight hours straight in school. EACH DAY.
And because of that, I had t give biathlon a miss. Was pretty bummed, think it would have been pretty interesting.
Omg I'm so exhausted srsly. I can't even think straight.

Yesterday Jocelyn came over :) And today Shaz Jane Clara Timothy came over too
But I had no energy t entertain them at all :(

And also, I was messaging my classmate saying that its our friend's birthday tmr should we get him a cake! And then I accidentally sent that message t my friend.
..........Can't stand myself sometimes :(

Pw OP tmr good luck groupies we've put in so much time and effort I'm sure it'll all pay off :)
And then we're free of PW FOR GOOD WOOHOO OMG I feel so happy just thinking abt it!

And today we went down t sch t support our friends who were getting back their results
And just thinking abt how next year is not gonna be the same without all of them (provided I even make it t next year) and how devastated they must feel but instead they choose t mask it all with a smile and sometimes I just want t tell them don't do this pls I hate seeing you pretend everything's ok and everyone thinks youre happy but I know you're not I can see the sadness in your eyes so stop lying stop pretending, it's ok t let your emotions show through but I can't tell them that cos I do it too and it would be so hypocritical and I know they can't help it just like I can't but it really breaks my heart t see them like this and I know I can't do anything but give them a hug and sit next t them when that facade finally crumbles and they break down and the tears start flowing and their voice cracks and I see in them the mirror of myself a week ago and I tell myself the only reason I got through last week is because of my friends and for them I will be strong and I will not cry but instead I will be their pillar of support and their shoulder t cry on. But it was so hard not t break down again just now but I must and will not. Sometimes I really hate life for being so unfair some people don't deserve what they're getting they really don't. I wish you and you would cheer up soon and realise that nothing is going t change. You all are still gonna be our good friends and we'll always be here for you anywhere anytime. Pretending t be happy doesn't make it better, it makes it worse, I realised this last week, and I'm hoping you all will too. Everyone has another side t them. Don't be afraid t show it and let us be there for you all. Cos that's all we really want t do. Cheer up friends life goes on and rmb you'll always have me I promise :)

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

8:40 PM

I've come t the decision that today marks the end of all that unhappiness

I'm gonna be happy fr now on (or at least try t)

I feel I owe all my friends at least that :)

From this day onwards it's gonna be no more tears and smiles all around

No matter what happens, life still goes on.

Monday the 3 PW grps crashed my hse again after their ChineseAs

And omg the meeting was total fail we just played rockband all the way!

HG+Eleanor stayed over too!

Tuesday we had run at CCAB so we just strolled over

And when we were going back t sch I was so tempted t just walk home!!

And today I also had an asthma attack, my teacher forced me t come home :/

Clara+Rachel+Eugene+Marcus+Saeful+Weisheng+TanJuen+HG came t visit

Thanks guys and girls :)

Rockband + The Prestige omg this must be the 35453434t6 time I'm watching it but I still find it nice all the same.

I hate falling sick srsly

I hope I recover in time for the biathlon tmr! :)

Sunday, November 01, 2009

10:46 PM

She was lost in so many different ways

Out in the darkness with no guide

I know the cost of a losing hand

Never for the grace of God

Oh, I

You are my Heaven on Earth

You are my last, my first

I always hear this voice inside

Ave Maria

I've been alone

When I'm surrounded by friends

How could the silence be so loud

But I still go home knowing that I've got you

There's only us when the lights go down

You are my heaven on Earth

You are my hunger, my thirst

I always hear this voice inside

Singing Ave Maria

Sometimes love can come and pass you by

While you're busy making plans

Suddenly hit you and then you realize

It's out of your hands, baby you got t understand

You are my heaven on Earth

You are my last, my first

And then I hear this voice inside

Ave Maria

Today I went over t HG's place then met Janyce+Eliza+XY for swimming

Omg swimming laps is so boring I swear

I was ultimate bored...How do swimmers do it??

Then met cousins and all for dinner on the 33rd storey of some building, the view was fantabulous!

Biathlon next Wednesday, 10laps of swimming + 10 rounds of the track

Good luck t us.

GOOD LUCK FOR CHINESE A'S EVERYONE :D

Yao hao hao zuo ok!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

11:43 PM

Today was a relatively better day :)

Spent the day w Clara/Jane + Some talk time w HG + Halloween at Fish&Co

Oh and I also ran into TwinSarah and Charmaine after nearly a year, it was good seeing them :)

+My brother's kindergarten graduation he's growing up right before my very two eyes

Tmr looks promising as well.

Gotta keep myself occupied all the time or I wouldn't know what t do once left with a free moment t myself and my mind starts t wander.

Friday, October 30, 2009

9:12 PM

It's true, you never really realise what matters a whole lot t you until you're about t lose it.

Tomorrow shall finally be a cry-free day, I'm so sick of breaking down, but thank you all for being there.

Yesterday was our graduation ceremony

I wanted t pon but hey I told my friend I'd go so I did

Bad move.

But after that went out w the class for lunch then a few of us watched Julie&Julia

6/10 of us fell asleep during the movie well done us.

And they cheered me up hell lot I'm so grateful

We linked arms and stretched out along the pavement of Orchard Road

Laughing as the people shot us dirty glares for completely blocking their way

As we linked arms we skipped merrily fr Taka t Ion

And I laughed so much it felt so nice

I love my class so much I really mean it

And today didn't have school

But went down t have morning run+trng

And damn when I woke up I told myself today I wouldn't breakdown

Funny how things turn out

After trng was HG's place for dinner w Eleanor and omg you two cheered me up soooo much I love you two muchos thanks billions :)